Our Christmas

I think I thought Christmas was going to be harder than it was. 

Don't get me wrong, Christmastime was hard.

But I am not sure if Christmas day was harder. Maybe it is because I was gearing myself up for it.

At one point, I was taking the trash out of my sister home. I went through the garage and saw Steve's car.

I am not sure why, but seeing his car tugs at my heart every time I see it.

I stood there and tears began to stream down my cheeks. I thought of his beautiful wife, children, home, and the gifts his sons were able to open from him this year. And I just thought, "Oh, Steven. Look at all this beauty because of you." And while I ached for him, I was just filled with a peaceful gratitude for him and all the divinity he brought into this world.

I have included some snapshots of how we were able to remember our Steven this month that made our hearts happy and a couple other photos that I know would make his heart happy.

Tiffany put this ornament on her tree this year. It was the perfect reminder we all needed and that the birth of our Savior brings.
My favorite ornament of the year. I ache because of his absence. 
A friend of my mother's who has also lost a son gave her this ornament. 
And the most touching experience of all Christmas, Steve's boys were able to open presents from their father, even though he's been gone for three months.
Steve's sister, our sister, spent Christmas with us this year. We loved it.
Nephew Two asked if I would join him in wearing an Ugly Christmas Sweater for our celebration. I obliged. 

1 comment:

Amy Fashion Blog said...

glad to hear you had a nice Christmas. The first one is always hard.

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