A difficult goodbye ...

This one is going to be serious, folks. Unusual, I know. But you will understand why.

As most of you know, I work with people with disabilities. I absolutely love my job, mainly because of the people it allows me to work with. I absolutely love the people I work with. I absolutely love my clients.

This week our company suffered a tremendous loss. One of our clients, one of my clients passed away Sunday morning.

There are no words to describe how much I miss him. There is no way to explain the emptiness that the lack of his presence creates. My heart aches when the realization creeps in that I will never again be able to see that mischievous look in his eye, see him tease new staff, or watch him skip and frolic outside as his staff try to keep up with him.

Upon hearing of his passing I couldn't help but reflect on the last moments I had with him. I'm not sure it could have been written out more perfectly. He sat looking out the window at the mountains, as often times he did. I was sitting next to him, calling him by the nickname I have for him, scratching his back and patting him on the leg. I remember him looking at me with those amazing eyes that so many times spoke the words he couldn't speak. They had so much to say. In that moment, I somehow knew it was a moment I would remember forever ... I now know why.

In that moment I remember thinking, "I hope he knows I love him."

Oh, how I wish I would've known that was the last time I would be able to share my love and gratitude for him.

His life and his death are the most perfect reminder that these special people are truly angels amongst us. They teach us tolerance, patience, acceptance of others and unconditional love.

I do not know why I have been so blessed to have my life so full of these angels. They truly have brought me some of the greatest joy I have ever known. It is my hope to do everything in my power to give them a little bit of that same joy they have given me. I want every interaction I have with them to be able to show them I know how special they are. I know their strength. I know their character. And I am eternally indebted for the lives they live and what they bring to me on a daily basis.

This photo was displayed at his viewing tonight ... What a beautiful scene to be captured. Oh, what I would have given to see this client be reunited with his Heavenly Father ... The Father being so pleased with His son who triumphed in this life against insurmountable odds ... being so pleased with His son who lived with struggles and complications most of us will never know and used those struggles and complications to accomplish the extraordinary in the lives of those he touched daily.

B, I miss you. I love you. Thank you for your smile, your laugh, your teasing, your love. I look forward to the day that we meet again and you can finally tell me your thoughts you've never been able to speak. Love you, friend.


Allred Mom said...

My thoughts are with you.
I am so sorry. I truly agree that we are so fortunate to work with special people. They find joy in things that we take for granted.
I am sure that you were a light in this young mans life.
You're in my prayers!

P.S. I love that picture. It is one of my favorites! A small glimpse of our reunion with our Heavenly Father.

Brandon Thornley said...

My dearest Sister,
Your words stir my heart and bring tears to my eyes. You see things with eternal eyes. You inspire me so often to be a better person.
I am so sorry for your loss and know that B is looking down on you and smiling.
Thank you for being such an example to us all. Your clients are indeed special and wonderful people, as are you.
I love you so much.... Thank you for being the sweet angel you are.


Mike said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Y post shows one of your best characteristics: your ability to love and appreciate others for who they are. Your capacity to care for others amazes me.

Geoff & Cami Brown said...

Thanks Mindy. I so needed to hear that. I am have a very rough morning with the special client I am staying with and this was a great reminder for me. I too will miss Him. He was the second client I ever worked with at cache and it is a time I will always remember fondly. He was a great example of love and acceptance that only the savior and someone like him can show. Thanks again.

BreAna Palmer said...

That was beautiful Mindy, What a loved man, I am sure B is always going to be watching over you and blessing you everyday. What an amazing angel to have around.

Nicole Anderson said...

Thanks :)

DeeAura said...

Mindy, I'm so sorry for your loss. I worked with the most darling children on the earth my last year at USU - there were about a dozen of them in a "special needs" class in the middle of a crazy middle school. But working with them, and falling absolutely in love with every single one of their incredible personalities made me wonder exactly who I thought I was. Those kids taught me more in four months than I learned in four years. And it was all the most important things in life: most importantly - laugh at everything. Oh, now I miss them more! All I mean by saying all of this is I can't imagine how I would feel knowing one of them had passed away - incredibly grateful to have known them, incredibly sad they're gone, incredibly happy for their chance to move on...anyway. Thanks, Mindy. In a strange way, this kind of made my day. :)

Allison and Josh said...


I'm so sorry for your loss. But it's so comforting that he is in heaven now, in his perfect form. What a sweet blog post! I love you, girl!

I Am Great, I Contain Multitudes said...

sorry to hear.

Krystal said...

I'm so sorry Mindy... my thoughts are with you and B.... thanks for sharing... xoxo

deveney said...

so this is kinda inappropriate response for this post, but yes, i did pop the blister, well not really pop it, but drained it...it felt so much better after being drained...ps love the hay phone call, good one:)

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